I don’t trust God, well….
At least I don’t always trust Him and I’ve been trying to figure out why? I mean He’s done nothing that would merit a lack of trust. He’s not broken my trust. Sure, there are things I’ve wanted or not wanted and they’ve not happened or did happen, but is that really God’s fault? I mean some of those things I thought were so essential in my life, looking back, would have been bad for me, would have taken me off track and away from Him – so I know why He said “no”. Some of the difficulties and trials? I guess it can come down to perspective – I mean I’d have to admit that I’ve probably grown the most as a Christian in the midst of or after a severe trial or difficultly. Because no matter how painful or difficult – God never left me, He was always trustworthy. Sure there were times I may have wondered, “are you here God?” and times I might have said, “God, if you were really here, you wouldn’t let this happen.” But the reality is we live in a broken world, where, to be honest, we should be seeing a lot more tragedy than we see. And yet through all of it, again, God has been here, loving me, caring for me, inviting me to trust Him and lean on Him.